don’t look down

a cliffside, a winter sun,
you call it dancing but it feels like a dare.
what does it mean, the edge in your eyes?

let’s just say:
we used to know we preferred solid ground.

the past is a movie where I fall and you reach,
but now?
I don’t want to be the first to slip, just in case.

I love you, we say.
but we mean: is this it?

creeping closer I close my eyes,
but yours are always wide open.
where is it, the thing you’re always waiting for?

let’s just say:
we’ve been rightfully wary of surprises.

the present is a gamble where we’re always all-in,
but now?
maybe I’ll take my all to a table with better odds.

forever, we say.
but we mean: how much more?

you slip, catch, and claim I pushed first,
but my hands are balled at my sides.
who are you, when you walk away alone?

let’s just say:
we lost the keys and this silence is a battering ram.

the future has always been a black hole,
and now?
the emptiness is a sister instead of a scar.

it’s nothing, we say.
but we mean: I’m sorry for…

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About tehlorkay

writer of poems and longer things. restless wanderer of small-town streets. unabashed seeker of the true world.
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8 Responses to don’t look down

  1. thefeatheredsleep says:

    Love this!

  2. Tamara.joy says:

    Hello! I’ve started a literary magazine and I would love it if you sent through some of your work for the first issue. This piece is really beautiful. If you’re interested, you can find submission details at http://spinebind.com/submissions/ 🙂

    I hope to hear from you; I love your work.

    Thanks,
    Tamara

  3. Keira Drake says:

    Gawd, Tehlor, you kill me. Absolutely beautiful.

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